chronicgambler | IC INBOX for Prisma

( with dice, he’s never fully satisfied. it’s not a jab at the man or his performance. quite the contrary; dice is capable of making him feel so good that it’s impossible to not get hooked, to crave more. and that’s exactly what he wants right now.

who would have thought behind held close would come to be something he adored? )

Oh, we are. ( and that’s that, except... gentaro pivots his hips closer, pressing each inch of his own body to dice’s. ) Eventually.

Mm. ( but gentaro gets it. he knows when dice is trying to be earnestly supportive and helpful. god he loves this man. )

A shame he hasn’t been able to meet you. I’m sure he’d have a few choice jabs about my tastes.

( he’s joking. the first one so far.

he curls even closer. )

[Dice slides an arm around Gentaro protectively, eyes fixed on him, and presses a kiss to his forehead.]

I wasn't gonna say it, but yeah, your taste is pretty weird if you like a guy like me. I know what I am, and I know you deserve the best I got. Probably better, but I'm tryin'. I'll watch out for you so you can watch out for your friend when we go back.

( that’s — how many times has dice said that? it finally gets to him and he peers back up at dice with a flatter expression. )

If you say one more self-deprecating thing, I’m evicting you. That isn’t a lie.

It's not like that... I like myself just fine.

[There's a "but" that he is not saying because he'd rather not leave Gentaro's side right now. So. He just grins.]

Hey. I'm gonna watch out for you. I mean it. You got me good.

( okay. he deflates and comfortably rests his head against dice once more. )

You’re worth a great deal, Dice. Don’t let it go to your head, but... you ought to know it.

Oh? You say that like you get a choice, Dice?

Ahaha, jk~!

But if you dont want to thats too bad!

Man, turning down all that money that I pay my models...wow, you must have struck it big at gambling lately! (▰︶︹︺▰)

wait r u payin

i take it back ill work idc easy moneys easy money sign me up

[Dice just runs fingers through his beloved author's hair, scooting closer on the bed so he can hold him properly.]

If you say it, I don't know about believing it. [A joke, and he laughs quietly.] I'm glad you don't think you coulda done better than me, because I like havin' you around. And holding you like this. I wanna make you feel like you don't have anything to worry about when I'm here.

I ain't rushing anybody.

[He presses back, grunting softly as he rolls his hips in response. Time... to take a risk. He's emboldened by their prior activities, so maybe he can be... oh, carelessly lewd?]

You know I like bein' inside you, anyway.

( that’s so ... selfless. just hearing it makes his heart race and the pain of such deep scars feel a bit less painful. dice is really comfortable and honestly, he really can’t imagine sleeping alone again. ever. )

Dice Arisugawa. ( he murmurs it, lips upturned as he hides his smile into dice’s chest. ) I really don’t think it’s possible for this old man to fall any more in love.

theyre not all bad but some of em are annoying im kinda like

just drinking bc its better than talking to ppl

i mean i like talking to ppl sometimes but rn im all in u mode and ur not helping the situation

Is that so?

( he makes sure no gremlins or hosts are sneaking a peek at the device as he accesses the picture files.

sorry dice, he’s going to make it worse and send a picture of him in that same get-up from the day they started dating. except he’s not wearing legging or the sweater. it’s just the lace. oops????

the fact he doesn’t have ears in it confirms this was from a different day and totally deliberate means of wanting to rile dice up. )

💚

[From across the room, please witness Dice nearly spilling his drink as he hurries to back out of the picture and sneak into a corner.]

god ur hot wtf how did i get this lucky

might hafta sneak off to the bathroom u know what i mean

Guess I gotta work harder to keep you falling.

[His lips contact Gentaro's hair, and he sighs happily against it.]

We all got stuff that hurts. It's not like we have a choice in where we are, but we keep makin' the most of it and it'll all turn out okay. Luck's got your back, and me too.

i can meet you there if you’d like.

( oh no he’s shit-faced if he’s not using proper capitalization!!! )

remember yesterday when you rapped to me? 💜

( he definitely wouldn’t say luck as his back, but he firmly believes dice does. the hands in his hair feel so wonderful and he’s so smitten over this idiot. )

There’s usually no point in rehashing the past, but I do hope that one day you know everything there is to know about me. ( it’s a murmured whisper, almost hesitant. )

Aww but you said before you don't want to wear my clothes?

( god, why haven’t they hooked up in the shower before? such a missed opportunity! gentaro lets out a sigh, more of a purr, really, as those words bring fire back into him. he doesn’t have cordis to blame this time for wanting a second round so quickly. maybe he can blame the mics and blame having a hot boyfriend. )

You’re quite right. I don’t feel nearly as complete without you. ( ok that is WAY TOO SAPPY BACK UP JUST A BIT, another grind and he lowers his voice to a somewhat sultry whisper ) The acoustics in here are great, you know. Would be a shame not to take advantage ...

( he ought to be writing. really he should be, but time spent with dice and time spent thinking about dice has become a very ardent contender for gentaro’s favorite activity. that, and now that gentaro knows it’s possible to self publish in this world, he feels a bit lighter. it’s true, he hasn’t penned anything worthy of the public eye since arriving here, just a very personal song for his team, but ... he feels reenergized over it all. there’s no need to abide by old ways or old ghosts. this world is his ... second chance.

so he only haphazardly keeps track of when they started dating. and he not at all subconsciously plans a weekend trip to coincide with it. he knows dice has a job now, gentaro has his books, and they have cats, but a couple of days will be fine. someone will look after cat and the little one and it’ll be fine.

the villa had been more of a necessity, a nice little confluence of circumstances that lead them to a romantic escape and falling in love, or admitting that love. this? this was more premeditated and a true escape.

he can’t remember the last time he was at the beach. but with dice it’s something he’s willing to explore, to partake in. so he simply tells dice to pack his bags and that they’ll be leaving in a few minutes for a few days.

crystal beach is beautiful and the cozy resort is gorgeous and reminiscent of where he told dice he loved him for the first time. it’s warmer than back home. it’s — comfortable. )

[Dice has a job now, but he's starting with just a few days a week, so it's not like he doesn't still have copious amounts of free time. Usually that's spent gambling, playing with Cat (and now Prince), or just pretending to nap while watching Gentaro read or (attempt to) write. It's a calm, comfortable life, except for the bells and whistles of the gambling parlors, so he's happy enough.

Still, getting away from the cold for a while sounds perfect. Even if Gentaro springs it on him with only a few minutes of notice, well, that's the way Dice likes it. Of course the author would be mindful of how to keep Dice entertained by keeping him on his toes. Without fuss, he packs up a couple of extra shirts and things, and they head out.

He doesn't expect a beach. A quiet, calm, beautiful place right now, but he can tell it's probably usually a busy place to be. Maybe it's because they're there on a weekday, but Dice is fine with this. There are myriad things to do, places to go, and he's pretty sure he won't get bored.]

...Holy shit, this is my first vacation ever.

[An afterthought, once they've checked in and are heading to their hotel room.]

( gentaro hadn’t really gone on any, either. his adopted family were too broke for that and when they did travel it was to see extended family. a destination purely for this? no strings attached and just relaxation? he can’t quite say he’s done it, either.

but he’s glad dice seems excited. dating someone means getting to know them and how they would like something. it’s a work in progress and he’s just glad he didn’t miss the mark with this one. )

Is that so? ( but he hides the smile behind his sleeve as he uses his other hand to grab the key and unlock the door to their room. ) I’ve never been to the beach before, so this is a new thing for both of us, it seems.

I used to think I knew what love was and what it was not. What chemicals and physical reactions it could cause. How it could make you do terribly senseless things. A poor author’s attempts at dissecting the unknown through observation. But then I fell in love with you. It was the easiest decision of my life.

Edited 2020-01-27 05:46 (UTC)

ive never felt like this in my life
im scared of it and im scared im going to turn into some kind of monster or get weird or mess this up in some way i havent even managed to imagine yet
i never thought about what love was until you happened
even your stories back home got me thinking about it like whats love in stories and whats real for real people?
im not sure im doing any of this right but every time you smile at me i feel like it's okay even if i dont
like even if l mess up youll give me another chance

i love you and i hope you know i mean that with my whole everything

IC INBOX for Prisma

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