[Dice freezes. He's not actually aware that his mouth is hanging open for the few moments that it is, but... eventually, in the silence, he snaps it shut.
His mouth is dry. He feels like he can't breathe, can't talk, can't move. Gentaro... said that. Gentaro called him stupid (which, god dammit, he knows he is, he fucking knows... And Gentaro knows who his mother is...?
They were supposed to have their secrets. They were supposed to both have secrets and that made them square and even and it made Dice less upset about not knowing a goddamn thing about Gentaro's life, his past, anything. None of that was important, he reasoned. None of that was necessary, because they both had them, and it made things balance out in Dice's mind.
There are too many thoughts running through too simple of a mind, and he realizes he's staring, dumbfounded, frowning, and jesus christ why is his vision getting blurry???]
...Yeah. Guess you don't have time for me, either.
[It hurts. It hurts in ways he doesn't have words for, because words are Gentaro's thing, not his. He can't even get the feelings out because he's never felt this betrayed in his life, and he still knows he fucked up, and hates himself for it. It's too much.]
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His mouth is dry. He feels like he can't breathe, can't talk, can't move. Gentaro... said that. Gentaro called him stupid (which, god dammit, he knows he is, he fucking knows... And Gentaro knows who his mother is...?
They were supposed to have their secrets. They were supposed to both have secrets and that made them square and even and it made Dice less upset about not knowing a goddamn thing about Gentaro's life, his past, anything. None of that was important, he reasoned. None of that was necessary, because they both had them, and it made things balance out in Dice's mind.
There are too many thoughts running through too simple of a mind, and he realizes he's staring, dumbfounded, frowning, and jesus christ why is his vision getting blurry???]
...Yeah. Guess you don't have time for me, either.
[It hurts. It hurts in ways he doesn't have words for, because words are Gentaro's thing, not his. He can't even get the feelings out because he's never felt this betrayed in his life, and he still knows he fucked up, and hates himself for it. It's too much.]
D'you... Uh.
[A sniff.]
D'you want this back?
[He's pulling the ring off.]