[He grips the ring tightly in his fist and puts his other hand over his face, like maybe if he does that he can stop these emotions from happening.]
I mean it. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, and I won't do it again. I know...
[He wants to run, wants to leave, wants to not process anything, he wants a cigarette and a slot machine and maybe to stop existing.]
I know I got a problem. I used'ta bet my damn life, before I met you. I didn't have shit. But now I got you, and I don't wanna lose you. When I bet it, the second I did it I felt like shit. You're the best thing I got goin' for me. Why'd I ever wanna risk that on a stupid game? But then it just kinda happened...
[His tongue feels too heavy.]
I'm scared. Like... when're you gonna realize I'm a piece of shit?
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[He grips the ring tightly in his fist and puts his other hand over his face, like maybe if he does that he can stop these emotions from happening.]
I mean it. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, and I won't do it again. I know...
[He wants to run, wants to leave, wants to not process anything, he wants a cigarette and a slot machine and maybe to stop existing.]
I know I got a problem. I used'ta bet my damn life, before I met you. I didn't have shit. But now I got you, and I don't wanna lose you. When I bet it, the second I did it I felt like shit. You're the best thing I got goin' for me. Why'd I ever wanna risk that on a stupid game? But then it just kinda happened...
[His tongue feels too heavy.]
I'm scared. Like... when're you gonna realize I'm a piece of shit?