( he tips his head to the side, inhaling then exhaling. all right. he could do this. he really could. perhaps this time he ought to start. )
I lie because it’s easier than confronting the truth. I won’t get hurt if I cloak everything as a joke or people aren’t inclined to believe me in the first place. Now that you know me, the lies won’t work. You know when I’m upset or lying. I haven’t had to properly process, ah... negative feelings, so to speak, in awhile.
I don’t know how to be a proper boyfriend, nor fiancé. I simply know that I want to be with you and that isn’t changing. And that truth is something I’m afraid will ruin me, because it’s the only truth about myself I like, and I’m afraid of losing it.
no subject
What mother?
( he tips his head to the side, inhaling then exhaling. all right. he could do this. he really could. perhaps this time he ought to start. )
I lie because it’s easier than confronting the truth. I won’t get hurt if I cloak everything as a joke or people aren’t inclined to believe me in the first place. Now that you know me, the lies won’t work. You know when I’m upset or lying. I haven’t had to properly process, ah... negative feelings, so to speak, in awhile.
I don’t know how to be a proper boyfriend, nor fiancé. I simply know that I want to be with you and that isn’t changing. And that truth is something I’m afraid will ruin me, because it’s the only truth about myself I like, and I’m afraid of losing it.