chronicgambler | IC INBOX for Prisma

[If he hadn't stopped running, Dice may not have ever caught up. He might've slid back into shadows of his own making, wrapped up as just as much of an enigma as the secretive author. He'd have waited forever.

He never fucking has to wait again.

That's not what he's thinking about, though. This is a contest now, a gamble, and he's betting on a goddamn win. If he tells Gentaro how he sees him, what the guy is to him, then maybe he'll understand. The rap drives words in to the bone, slams down barrier Gentaro has up, and Dice doesn't give two fucks if that's what he came for; it's what he's getting.

He hooks an arm around Gentaro's hips, puling their bodies flush even with layers of fabric in between. Two-toned eyes are locked on Gentaro, a wild look on Dice's face, a grin of a man who wants to die like this, to live like this, to feel every single thing in creation all at once. And Gentaro does that to him. God, it's filth, it's perfect, it's what he needs, and he grunts low as he simply presses against Gentaro. No friction, no satisfaction from anything but words, but god does he want to feel it when this guy goes off anyway. The tension low in Dice's body is almost unbearable already, and his mind is fuzzy from the lyrics and flow. It's hot, hotter than the fucking sun.

A second, a beat, and his mic is back at his lips, a low, sensual sound, somehow the opposite of Gentaro's words, metaphor the author probably didn't think this guy could build. He wants to caress him, bring him around slowly, then devastate him. So he does. He builds up the intensity for a moment with beauty and heat, then flips a fucking switch and throws down just as dirty, just as raw, what he wants to do to him, things he'd never admit outside of rap or this, this, this.

His body tenses and twitches slightly as he tries to catch his breath, sweat forming on his brow, too. He's gonna come with another round of this, he's absolutely sure.

Orange you glad I didn't say banana.]

( it’s terrifying to think that in his entire time here, dice had continually been the only person he wanted. while others were convenient, dice had been the one that gentaro saw himself finally opening up to; someone that had showed how protective he could be and how little fucks he gave about the past. if dice hadn’t wanted him, there wouldn’t have been anyone else. just dice, always dice.

sentimental thoughts aren’t great when you’re rapping and sitting on your boyfriend’s lap, achingly hard and mind drenched in need. thinking that dice is his muse, is the perfect complement to him, is the thing he wants to see each and every night and morning isn’t paired well with sweaty hair and palms and bruising lips.

but he indulges in it, allowing dice’s words to flood him. they cause him to arch, bending like a bow, body pressing hard against dice’s, down against dice, into dice. it’s intoxicatingly consuming and he trembles at the suggestions in dice’s rhyme.

he barely has the power to raise his own mic, which he knows will be the last time because the words cause him to spill over the edge. his rap is a direct response to dice, the sort of moan that always follows dice’s heavy touch. there’s no metaphor in this one, either, just honest want, desire, lo—

he finds himself coming undone with his last words, body having ground down on dice’s lap perfectly to tip him over the edge and into an orgasm. apparently it’s possible.

for the record, those last words include:

there is nothing better,
steal me away forever )

[Leave it to Gentaro to make this as beautiful as it is depraved, to draw Dice in at the last possible second and seize his heart along with his mind. He needs this. He needs the shelter, the assurance of a future, the place to return to. He can't reach that thought process now, but after, later, he'll recall this warmth and know that he's found a home.

Forever starts today.

His body curls forward, then he arches back slightly to get the barest touch of friction against Gentaro. That's all it takes for him to follow, coming as hard as this damn guy always makes him do. It reverberates through him, like his whole body just lit up. Good.

He pulls Gentaro close with a hand at the back of his neck, fingers trailing up into his hair, and he says it, just up and fucking says it to Gentaro. That he needs him. Wants him. Will keep him and fight for him and protect him. It's a low rap, shaky and stupid and sans microphone because he's too busy coasting down to care. And Gentaro came already, right? It's just fine.]

( it’s more than fine.

if gentaro wasn’t already falling cataclysmically in love with dice the shaky, low rumbles would have pierced any remaining boundary. it would have shattered any wall and left the aloof man cracking at the seams, realizing love really is something you settle in and feel, that it can’t quite be described and it hits hard but it grows over time and isn’t like some blunt switch.

the hands in his hair feel stupidly nice and gentaro leans into them as he the waves of his orgasm fade. they’re going to be an absolute, disgusting mess but he can’t quite care, no, not with dice’s words filling years of holes in his heart. )

Dice. ( he kisses him sweetly, warmly, slowly, unable to parrot back such honest truths at this second but pouring the sentiment into the kiss. )

[The kiss is... overwhelming. It's a blissful union of their thoughts without all the words they just leveled at each other, a seal to the declaration Dice has just made. It makes him ache, the sweetness, the care and warmth. He hasn't known tenderness in... so long. He never actually expected it from Gentaro, either, not with the way they keep at it.

He won't scoff at it or look down on it at all. His admiration and adoration are equal and fierce, and he kisses back with a sweet, slow hesitation that belies his inexperience. Every time Gentaro says his name, it feels like he's going to jet into the atmosphere.

When did he start needing this? When the kiss subsides, he rests his forehead against Gentaro's. They're... disgusting and a mess, yeah, and they can go take a shower in a moment. But he wants to treasure this as he comes down off the high of their raps and subsequent results.]

You okay?

( he’s made a note to kiss dice more. while making out is not at all uncommon when they oh so frequently go at it against walls, couches, bedposts and other objects in between, the random, slow, deep kisses are still on the less frequent side. that’s not to say gentaro minds then at all, they’re just ... well, pure affection and vulnerability for the sake of it.

it’s basically saying that a kiss has now become something he wants to do with no promise of sex behind it.

dice’s question tethers him back to reality. slowly, his eyes open and he takes in the sight of his sweating boyfriend. good. he’s so gorgeous and right there and his jawline slays. his chest does a weird flip again and he curls his hands tighter in dice’s hair. )

Never better. ( it’s an exhausted, breathless lilt but dice should be keen on the fact that “that’s a lie” doesn’t follow. instead, he tips his head a bit to brush soft, barely there kisses along dice’s cheekbone back to his ear. )

[There's a still foreign tenderness between them when they're like this. Dice doesn't know what to do with it other than chase it, to tip his head a little and give Gentaro ample room to explore.

The mic drops to the couch. Dice's heart leaps into his throat. He chokes on the sentiment, grinning, eyes closed.]

Good. We gotta do that again sometime. 'S hot as hell.

Certainly.

( absolutely, unequivocally yes. his kisses do reach dice’s ear and they brush along the shell of it before he whispers, softly: )

You meant all of that. ( it’s a mic, he can’t lie, if the rules are the same in this world. he feels his face grow absently red. any other time he’d ignore it but right now, just for once, he doesn’t feel exposed chasing the truth and acknowledging something new and terrifying but so damn warm. )

Sure as hell did.

[He can't lie. And he wouldn't. He'll keep Gentaro close and safe and watch out for him like a friend would, a best friend, an ally, a knight. A lover, now. He turns his head just enough to put his lips by Gentaro's ear again, and his voice drops to something husky and gray, but still so very Dice.]

Every. Fuckin'. Word.

( that voice does so many things for him, even after he’s spent and it’s not through a mic. his body nearly trembles and he circles his arms tighter around his boyfriend’s neck.

don’t mind the breathless grin that appears, a touch mischievous. )

I like you a great deal, Arisugawa.

I like you an awful lot, too.

[He grins as he says it, burying his face in sandy brown hair.]

I know we got a long way to go, but I'm gonna be here.

A long way? The shower isn’t that far.

( what a jerk. either way, he remains comfortably on dice’s lap, not budging yet. the words make him smile and he doesn’t even try to hide it. not this time. )

Carry me. I’ve been deprived of seeing you unclothed and I deserve remuneration.

[He tips his head back to raise his voice.]

You're being demanding just like that?? C'mon! At least offer to do the laundry after!

[Unapologetic, he puts his hands on Gentaro's ass, then lifts him as he stands. Bless his odd strength.]

Hm? Should I wear an apron, too? How do you feel about maid outfits, Daisu?

( his arms stay woven around his boyfriend, ducking his head against his collarbone. he’s so comfortable, he feels safe — he genuinely thinks he could get used to this. )

Maid outfits? Hah.

[You have no idea what he thinks about maids, Gentaro.]

I'll take you like you. I don't care what you're wearing!

( what the hell....

gentaro looks surprised, caught off guard, and then ducks his head even more, his face on fire. )

I... see. ( he should know by now that this is an embarrassed stammer. )

I'm not sayin' no to anything, but I like your regular style, too. It's old school, but it makes you stand out.

[God does he know how to be anything but annoyingly straightforward?]

( dice you’re killing him. slaying him. he’s so beside himself right now. his fingers are even restlessly tracing shapes on the nape of dice’s neck because he’s so smitten. christ.

and then in the first showing of this flavor of honesty: )

It’s intended to do the opposite. Traditional clothing is very regimented and without much flair or personalization. ( it takes the self out of self expression. ) It was all my family could afford for a number of years, the remaining garments from their own families.

[Dice stops for a beat, then continues carrying him to the bathroom. Only now his steps are a little more thoughtfully paced.]

...

[Shit.]

...I'm still okay to think it looks good though, right?

Yes. Of course.

( it’d come out eventually, that many of his tendencies stem from a previous life of frugalness and bullying. but for now he merely strays his hand up into dice’s hair. )

Though I have to wonder about your jacket...

[Dice gets him to the bathroom and pushes him up against the wall so he can let him down easier. It's firm but gentle--and kind of disgusting, considering--but he sets Gentaro on his feet again.]

...what about it?

Nothing.

( but he’s quick to curl his hands into dice’s shirt, another straying down to fiddle with the belt of dice’s pants. apparently dice is no longer allowed to undress himself.

his fingers dip in his waistband some more, playfully. )

Will you let me wear it sometime? ( BOYFRIEND JACKET??? )

[Oh. Oh hell yes. Boyfriend jacket. Boyfriend jacket.

He'll let Gentaro work his clothes off all he wants, and do his part to remove the author's.]

...hell yeah. Any time.

[Hold on. He's gonna. Try something here.]

Maybe, you know... just the jacket?

[Or more of that good goddamn lace shit underneath he liked that too.]

( as is shockingly more often than not nowadays - except for earlier - they're on the same page. he'd be very delighted to wear lace under that jacket. hell, he could even get a matching set that'd go better with it and --

his fingers linger on dice's boxers. )

For you ( he begins, voice low and warm as he gently tugs down that last piece of clothing, fingertips ghosting along his inner thigh ) Anything.

( it really does shock him, too, that it isn't a lie. )

[Dice has made short work of Gentaro's clothing, too, letting the layers fall. The teasing touch has him honestly wondering if this is going to work him back up... shit, it's bad enough that he's thinking about the lace and jacket combo.

Shall he...

Be brave?]

You... [He grins.] ...Hey, maybe not a maid dress, but like... dresses in general? Skirts? Totally cool. I might leave 'em on you, though.

[Shit. Honesty is wild.]

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