chronicgambler | IC INBOX for Prisma

( he opens it and — smiles. what a dork, he absolutely loves him. without delay, gentaro removes it and raises it up— and then wraps it around both of them. )

It seems you’ve been trapped. ( but he’s smiling. )

[Dice is so relieved to see that smile that he huffs a nervous little laugh, just as Gentaro wraps him up.]

You ain't the thief for nothin'.

( he smiles ... and then it fades. he needs to do this. really. he ought to ... )

Let’s go to bed.

( not to sleep he just feels safer there, like only he and dice belong there. his hand falls to tangle with dice’s as he steps away. )

Bed...?

[But he certainly isn't looking the least bit frisky. That smile should stay. Dice knows Gentaro can't be invincible, but he's long been someone Dice wants to defend when vulnerability is found. He manages to shove his coat off before Gentaro takes his hand, and follows him to the bedroom hand in hand.]

I can't help if I don't know what's goin' on...

( it’s safer there, a smaller room. that, and if he falls into this newfound desire to be held when he falls apart, so be it.

still...

he doesn’t even bother undressing when they get there, instead insistently tugging dice to lay down with him, at least upright on their sides. this feels — better. less suffocating.

he doesn’t even know where to start. )

Ramuda told you nothing. ( it sounds accusatory at first, but... maybe he’s thankful. he hesitates and then — ) When I was younger, I had a friend. Someone who could easily tell when I was lying or upset.

( his voice drops quieter. )

My first friend, as most of the children at my school didn’t think kindly of orphans. But he didn’t mind.

( and it broke him of the spell he was certain to fall into. )

We were friends for a number of years, but. As fate would have it, of course. He fell ill. It was inconvenient for awhile, but ... ( there’s always a but. ) ... After some time, during the war, he fell comatose. On this date.

[He reaches to toy with a little lock of Gentaro's hair, frowning gently.]

Ramuda didn't tell me anything about you, but I never really asked either. Didn't think it was my business.

[This is a lot of information he... somewhat had heard before in a form, in Gentaro's usual solo, but... Confirming it is actually kinda weird.

No, not weird. Heartbreaking. And for a second, Dice almost thinks he shouldn't have taken his younger life for granted so.]

I'm sorry about your friend. Did he come out of it?

( he really isn’t used to facing reality, instead so used to fiction and this fairy tale he and dice have spun over the last month or so. but he can’t grow as a person, can’t make this last and not blow up in his face, if he doesn’t start somewhere.

dice’s words oddly ease the tension that had been growing in his shoulders. )

As far as I’m aware, no. But it’s been ... six months or so since I could confirm that.

( supposedly time is stuck here but. even so. he feels like he’s broken some vow. )

[Their fairy tale needs moments of reality, or Dice might get too happy and float off into the sky. He has to remember that they're adults in a relationship, and that being empathetic and caring are part of the package. But then again, that comes strangely easily for Dice.]

That's... rough. I'm sure he'd wanna know you're thinkin' of him, even if you're not there.

Mm. ( but gentaro gets it. he knows when dice is trying to be earnestly supportive and helpful. god he loves this man. )

A shame he hasn’t been able to meet you. I’m sure he’d have a few choice jabs about my tastes.

( he’s joking. the first one so far.

he curls even closer. )

[Dice slides an arm around Gentaro protectively, eyes fixed on him, and presses a kiss to his forehead.]

I wasn't gonna say it, but yeah, your taste is pretty weird if you like a guy like me. I know what I am, and I know you deserve the best I got. Probably better, but I'm tryin'. I'll watch out for you so you can watch out for your friend when we go back.

( that’s — how many times has dice said that? it finally gets to him and he peers back up at dice with a flatter expression. )

If you say one more self-deprecating thing, I’m evicting you. That isn’t a lie.

It's not like that... I like myself just fine.

[There's a "but" that he is not saying because he'd rather not leave Gentaro's side right now. So. He just grins.]

Hey. I'm gonna watch out for you. I mean it. You got me good.

( okay. he deflates and comfortably rests his head against dice once more. )

You’re worth a great deal, Dice. Don’t let it go to your head, but... you ought to know it.

[Dice just runs fingers through his beloved author's hair, scooting closer on the bed so he can hold him properly.]

If you say it, I don't know about believing it. [A joke, and he laughs quietly.] I'm glad you don't think you coulda done better than me, because I like havin' you around. And holding you like this. I wanna make you feel like you don't have anything to worry about when I'm here.

( that’s so ... selfless. just hearing it makes his heart race and the pain of such deep scars feel a bit less painful. dice is really comfortable and honestly, he really can’t imagine sleeping alone again. ever. )

Dice Arisugawa. ( he murmurs it, lips upturned as he hides his smile into dice’s chest. ) I really don’t think it’s possible for this old man to fall any more in love.

Guess I gotta work harder to keep you falling.

[His lips contact Gentaro's hair, and he sighs happily against it.]

We all got stuff that hurts. It's not like we have a choice in where we are, but we keep makin' the most of it and it'll all turn out okay. Luck's got your back, and me too.

( he definitely wouldn’t say luck as his back, but he firmly believes dice does. the hands in his hair feel so wonderful and he’s so smitten over this idiot. )

There’s usually no point in rehashing the past, but I do hope that one day you know everything there is to know about me. ( it’s a murmured whisper, almost hesitant. )

[Dice will never intentionally let him down, and if he does it accidentally he'll beat himself up. He just wants Gentaro to be with him until there's nothing left in the world. Whatever world.

That, though. They're both so secretive about their pasts, and for good reason, but...]

I'd... like that. Knowing more about you. Doesn't have to be past stuff if it doesn't matter, but I wanna see the whole you. Everything. Everything you like, everything you don't like... stuff you wanna do when we're old and tired and done with the whole rap business.

[Dice wants to put his hand where that mic used to be, once it's all said and done. And he'll fight for that.]

( he smiles at that. it isn’t the first time he’s thought about what a future after the battles are over. it’s ... nice to think maybe dice would be in that, that perhaps this isn’t a fling. )

You’ll have to stick around, then. I don’t tend to show all my true colors at once.

( it’s mostly a joke, but he keeps close to dice. he genuinely does want to show dice everything about him. he’d give this man the world. )

Hopefully it won’t be terribly boring.

[It's not a fling. Day after day, Dice becomes more certain of that. They're something, and more than anything else, Dice wants to protect that something with his very life.]

You're not boring!

[Gentaro is an adventure. He can't find the words to say that.]

Just be yourself. That's all I want. All I wanna see.

Is that so...? I’m a far cry from a pachinko parlour or a roll of the dice.

( yet he trusts dice when he says that. he rest, honestly believes him. that dice thinks he’s something. they’re something. his fingers idly trace back up into that hair he’s so in love with and so familiar with at this point. )

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usodesuyo this thread its his brother and not his friend; maybe he just calls him his friend idk